Apologies for the mushy post. Was how I was feeling then. Just momentary - had just heard that two close people were in hospital and was feeling far from them and pretty helpless. It is at those times that it would be so lovely to have someone there. Right at that moment. Right when you get that phone call. Am nearly back to normal now. As normal as Rebecca Jane Thwaites from Cockermouth town gets. Have a room of boxes - packing tomorrow and moving on Tuesday.

It was a baptism service this evening. Lots of lovely people getting baptised, including my lovely friends Ruthie and Anna. So exciting. Want to go through it all over again. It amazes me the different ways in which God brings people to Him. He is so creative (well duhhhhh!). For me it was a gradual but beautiful thing. Lots of moments in my life where he has romanced me and brought me closer. I first gave my life to God when I was six. Doubted that experience later on - thought that it wasn't possible that someone so young could have that kind of relationship. Was looking through my old school books recently though and found in a writing book from when I was sixish - a letter I wrote to Jesus. A prayer. Thanking Him for being my friend and just writing to Him as a friend would to a friend. I KNEW Him then. Truly. Think that that is part of the reason I believe so strongly in reaching out to children.

Recently God has been speaking to me through beauty - through the beauty surrounding me and through the beauty that I find in my friends. Through the children I work with. God is sustaining me through His word but is also bringing people to me when I need them. When I do feel alone. He has provided me with an Auntie and Uncle and cousins who have become my home away from home. A job that I adore. God is great! Right must go to sleep - lots of packing to do tomorrow.